seven weeks in sa-town

so dead, tired, and happy! taking tomorrow off was genius...

I just got home from downtown celebrating the Spurs 3rd NBA Championship!!! Julia, Miriam, and Arnold came over to watch the game and as soon as the final buzzer sounded we were jumping up and down and then sprinting to the car. It was incredible. Thousands upon thousands of people were all making a pilgrimmage to downtown. I'm glad I live so close, because it turns out tens of thousands of people all had the same idea. Highlights of cruising were: assorted children roaming the streets; bus stops as cheering sections; trucks overflowing with mexican families (of course!), and this one little old man hunched on the side of the road cheering, that arnold thought looked like smiegel/gollum from lord of the rings. It was cheezy and rowdy and unbelievably fun. Once we got downtown we picked up a friend of arnold's and she came with us after we parked and started to roam the streets. Krystal found us and we walked down commerce, which was fully pedestrian because there were just so many people celebrating. Julia and I saw some people running around with huge argentine flags, and we all noticed some disturbing inflatable dolls wearing spurs jerseys. I have never seen so many people in the streets like that. my throat hurts from yelling so much and my body is sore from running and dancing. there was this crazy band with a steel drum and a horn and some other funky instruments that set up on commerce and losoya. at first julia and I were really intrigued because there was a decent crowd of these crazy young guys dancing. we convinced arnold to join them, and then we did, and soon everyone was dancing crazy mosh, tribal style. it was friggin awesome.
i had lots of fun and took plenty of pictures i should post somewhere.
aaah, i can still smell all the smoke and the booze and the pandamonium. it was huge and crowded and cheezy and very typical san antonio, and something I don't want to ever forget.

the latest episodes in my life all have the same theme: character, or lack thereof, never ceases to amaze
I never expected work to be stressful! it's one thing to be an intern and come by for a few hours a week and it is another thing entirely to be a full time, albeit seasonal, employee. and it's not just getting paid. i've worked hard to earn responsibilities, and have taken on more and more difficult assignments. (we even have an imaginary gold star system) if this is what i want to do with the rest of my life i need to take it seriously now, not just in a few years when I graduate and I have to. my coworkers, my boss, and generally the people around me who pay attention know this. hell, my work might not be perfect but I give it my all, especially when I'm turning it over to people I respect.
respect is fluid though, and some people are losing mine due to serious character flaws and questionable behavior.
i got a fucking fortune cookie that said "your work and talent will be recognized" and I threw it away. the next day the exact opposite happened, just as i'd predicted.yet for every asshole, there's been a kind person who reminds me why i'm doing this. i've met some wonderful, complex, interesting people that have the same concerns and questions I do. I've reconnected with others who I may have taken longer to realize were good people, worth calling friends or mentors. this whole thing has taught me more than any "museum administration" or "business ethics" or "human resources" course ever could.
all of my friends will get here someday, I'm sure. I may have fit the cliche of young and idealistic, but I'm not naive. i've known a lot of this all along; i just never really paid attention.

You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round

happy birthday arnold!
I got back from his birthday party a little while ago and I must say, he's a popular character. the highlight of the evening was definitely when his mom came out with a darth vader birthday cake and was singing the star wars theme song. adorable. but yes, I think arnold is a fantastic person and i hope he had an incredible birthday. i am honored to be his friend. :)
I also reunited with a Rice/Brown person. I'm kind of ashamed that I didn't remember his name at first, but I clearly knew his face and who he is. Tariq= new friend, except we already knew each other and he already knows several of my friends, so go figure.
like so many of my stories, particularly those of tonight, this is just one tangent after another.
anyways, I was just in a good mood. I'm sleepy and tomorrow is *gasp* another long day at Blue Star. seriously though, let's do lunch.

for the first time in like two weeks I am being lazy. I'm jealous of all you people who have true summers. I mean, for quite a while back, (we're talking 5-6 years) I've spent a significant chunk of my summer working. you'd think I'd be used to it, but no. that being said, until know I've had cushy office jobs that pay well, have flexible hours, and don't require too much thinking. but where's the stimulation, the challenge? so i'm working full time at Blue Star until I leave for Buenos Aires. it took me two weeks to find the job that I'd wanted in the first place, but didn't know I could have. my first week was exhausting, even if only 4 days, and I feel that I'm embarking on yet another love/hate relationship. what else is new?
the girls and i had a little thing at krystal's last night. i hesitate to call it a party, because it wasn't. i'm too dead to really party; as it was I was the first one asleep. but we made some fantastic watermelon margaritas and had good company. Andy showed up with his new boy and I was very pleased. he seems happy :) hopefully we can do something really huge before I leave. of course, I can't make any promises, but I don't see why the beach or the river would be difficult.
my little cousin is in town for several weeks. hannah banana. she's almost as tall as me and I'm sad to see her growing older. today I watched the disney channel and decided I have a holden caufield complex. I simply abhor the idea of being "old."
hooray botox? not quite. but if you have any clues as to approximations of the fountain of youth, fill me in. i need more than saturday morning cartoons.

It's so hard to stay positive amidst so much stress and chaos. Two of my classes are having serious issues with the professors (actual deans and department chairs are having to get involved... :/). And I just want to finish, but I can't concentrate. I'm writing a paper that I've wanted to right for years. Yes, I'm a nerd. But I think I'm a postmodernist nerd, so it's all good. I've always enjoyed folklore and thought that the evolution from Grimm to Disney was fascinating, if not kind of tragic. Old fairy tales were crazy twisted, you prolly don't know. Some theorists consider them Freudian myths. Yeah. Why was the evil stepmother jealous? That's right. Anyways, I've had time to think about this for some while, aka years, and I can't write. I'm facing crazy writer's block and all I can think about is how in 2 days I'm going home. My plan is to come back for commencement, so it's not like I'm going forever, but that's not entirely worked out yet. Either way, packing and leaving and saying bye sucks. Like today and tuesday. I had to say goodbye to CAM people, and it really, really, sucked. Especially for some of them. I wokred with some insanely fascinating people who I learned a lot from. Like to the extent that I might consider them mentors. I saw fine examples of where my career could take me. And if I'm happily married and doing something I love and driving a cool Audi (lol) and laughing every day then I'll consider myself a success, just like them.  I should be good about emailing them. It'll be a while before I see them all again. But that's ok. Today was the beginning of lots more goodbyes. See you in seven months? Egh. It could be worse, I suppose.

i'm so friggin tired. oh, and i got randomly facebooked by a girl i knew in 6th grade! yes, i must admit, it's the little things these days, like running through the sprinklers with jean-marc just because i can. while looking like i have some kind of sweat problem all afternoon might not be attractive, it was more than laughable. *huzzah*
oh, and if I might come off as preoccupied, or perhaps "annoyed" don't forget that it IS finals time. patience, please. God knows I'm full of it.

conociendo a frank sinatra,
mia :)

this room reeks of pot. why are my poor boys surrounded by huge stoners? oh well, we've all gotten quite used to it at this point... but still!
I'm taking far too long to accomplish anything work wise. I got through round one of shit, but now is round 2 and I am nowhere near where I should be.
it's incredible that in a week i will likely be home. there is a chance i might stick around another week, but either way my days are numbered. i talked to my mother tonight and realized how much i'm going to miss everyone. I won't see most of them for 8 months... no more random explorations with tullis, partying with jean-marc, or adventures with merrill. and that's not even everyone.
aaahhh.
anyways, i just needed a little study break. i'm exhuasted, but i should do more writing. yay academs!

sweet dreams

of course, I'm exagerating. but honestly, this week. wow. twenty-one hours is finally catching up to me. i saw it coming, but still. thirty-something page newspaper for spanish, modalities of cinema final paper, art history final, visual arts sketchbook. and that's just yesterday and tomorrow. aarrgh. as a study break for myself I just watched the new gavin degraw music video for "chariot," mostly because zach braff directed it. maybe it's just my severe lack of sleep and all my crazy humanities papers talking, but it's very postmodern. i'm so tempted to delete that last sentence at the risk of being a huge, huge dork. but... lol here are some cool pictures from my spanish project. i took them, and then we did some photoshop stuff. yay!

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So I just rolled back into San Antonio an hour ago and already managed to feel out of place. My dad was being pissy, which was unexpected. I feel guilty when I complain about my parents, since most of you really love them, but sometimes they deserve it. When I walk to the car and my dad is being a jerk, I honestly want to just jump on the first plane back to Houston. But that would mean missing out on my comfy bed, and seeing my mom and grandma and Ben.

Today I felt dizzy. There was too much going on for me to handle. I did something really gutsy that I'm proud of, especially since I suck at confrontation. Merril and I went to the village all afternoon and determined that we still want our mothers to buy us everything. Tina's birthday party was tonight at Buca Di Beppo. I had to endure some vicious teasing from Victor and David (at one point Jeremy and Phil joined in too and I nearly got up and left) who managed to disguise perviness with being fuck-tards. One day when I get my labtop up and running again I will load all my fabulous pictures and show them off. The whole thing was rockstar themed and I was able to say that I was Lindsay Lohan, even if it is the furthest thing from true you could imagine. Phil went as Queen Latifah.

;)

so i'm just gonna pretend that not much has happened in a month.
except that'd be a lie.

only a month left! i can't believe it's almost summer. as usual, this is giving me mixed emotions. i'm terribly excited to go home and just be in san antonio, but i'm also sad to leave Brown and Rice, especially since I won't be back for some time. going abroad has me terrified. i'm excited, sure, but there's this hesitiation deep in my gut that i'm just trying to quarantine and ignore. buenos aires, i'm on my way, sort of.

beer bike is in two days! krystal is coming tonight! i can't wait to see her. I miss her like no other, in fact. she's quite a spicy character. anyways, this was a lame, dull attempt at an entry. you don't have to tell me twice. i know.

trying to remember how to do this,

mia

i just downed a cafe au lait, and it had almost no effect. i'm dead tired. hopefully six weeks of going full speed isn't catching up to me. just one or two more weeks, please!
yeah, i've been out of sorts for a while. notable events of late- family visit last weekend (yay, grandma!), keystone drama (lol, what else), lots and lots of baseball, angelika with tullis, and randomness with 7th floor girls (I <3 my Jen and Merrill!.
I've finally gotten a big project with CAM. I'm working on the catalogue for an exhibition they're doing this fall, Andrea Zittel. Her work is about organization of space and design of lifestyle. at least that's what I gather so far... more as I progress, I suppose.

       

anyways, I'm beat (and concerned about potential caffeine issues). goodnight

My Julia got into Rice!!! ( and she got bookoos of money too!) Aaaaah!! Seriously, the thought of her being here is beyond exciting. My own little sister/ bestest friendest partner in crime could just be across campus!
Of course I ultimately want her to be happy and make the decision that is right for her. But I can dream and hope, right? LOL, no pressure Julia. If you go somewhere else I'm sure it would be crazy fun to visit too.

Oh, and I'm 75% sure I'll be in B.A. next semester... I don't want to get too hyped up, because I still need to go over details with my parents but if all goes well I'll be doing the IFSA Butler program. yay!

i had a meeting at the president's office and managed to leave just in time for a sporadic rainstorm. i got terribly soaked, but it was weirdly refreshing, especially once i was in my nice bathrobe all warm and dry. random, i know.
the point of this is that i saw this on another lj and had to do it. i'm in love with this play. i remember being in new york and going to see it when joey fatone was the star. now it's drew lachey. how things change... seasons of love and light my candle make me smile, regardless of anything. 

Collins - the intellectual. You fall hard for those
who surround you with happiness, and you have
no problems with being youself. You damn the
man and love other men all at once.

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i would be a gay man. fabulous :)

one year ago today I was in the superbowl halftime show! this year, with all due respect to paul mccartney, it sucked. i would have rather seen janet jackson's boob again.

some people read my lj a lot and want to see themselves featured. this was a recent convo with one such person.
*huzzah*
mia

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i'm happy right now. luckee. yay.
we threw a surprise birthday dinner thing for david. it was really fun. i caught up with shawn and actually got to see Tina!!!!! i hadn't seen in her two weeks. at all. no lie. we talk more via lj than anything. lol.
after our little fiesta we went to the big basketball game and screamed and tried to get on ESPN. Rice lost (*tear*) and my throat hurts, but it was worth it. monisa and i went to pub with the boys, and then met up with more brown people at sid. it was a really quiet night, but that's necessary every once in a while. i fear getting burned out before the semester is over. working my ass off all week and partying hard every weekend doesn't leave much room for chilling out. and as weird as it might sound, I think I'm ultimately a pretty mellow person, and going out and getting scream-your-ass-off drunk all the time is something I can't do all the time. oh well, right?
in other news, I have a little crush on someone! but it's silly, and not even like me to mention something like that. really, that's more than enough talking about it...
i've been thinking that i <3 brown 7th floor lately. i love you people.

I'm really frustrated with money and bureaucracy in event planning right now. We will show a movie on the quad!!! It's going to kick ass!! There.
I have an art history exam that's kind of scary. But I'm actually sort of looking forward to studying. That's the first time in my life I've said that. This is monumentous... Really though, I think Will put it best "I just think I'm so cultured now because I can talk about all this artwork." It's true ,lol, you are cultured.
Anyways, it's been a long day. One of the curators, Lynn, got me jamba juice today, and I could have just exploded with gratitude. I don't quite know why, but it just made my day.

*huzzah*
Mia

girls asking out boys- hot or not?
lol. i'm curious as to what people think. exciting,eh?

Hear me
I'm cryin' out
I'm ready now
Turn my world upside down
Find me
I'm lost inside the crowd
It's getting loud
I need you to see
I'm screaming for you to please
Hear me
Hear me

oh gosh. crazy hectic morning.
first of all, fuck you people who steal umbrellas.
I woke up and mine was gone from outside my door. thank you, a-hole. as if i wasn't late to CAM already, I had to wake up James, plead for his extra umbrella, and then walk there. but he was a sweetie about it, of course. by the time I got to CAM I was thoroughly disgusting and cold. i'm worried i could be getting sick. time for extra vitamins?
today was a dissapointingly bland day, but maybe that was just the effect of the weather. I got plenty soaked and muddy, and possibly ruined some new pants I just bought this weekend. hooray.
but on the brighter side, I saw the MFAH with Pres. Leebron and all the Rice people who came for the Passport to Houston celebration. it was really interesting, there was a good turnout, and it was a nice change of pace from a regular weeknight. except the one time I skipped my art history class with the drunken prof he actually passed out a syllabus and took roll. fabulous.
lotsa work this week, which sucks. aargh, aargh, aargh.

noches
mia

my friends are talking politics in the other room and i'm about to jump in the shower. james is running for Student Association president. i think that it would be insanity not to vote for him. more on that later, once i've been issued a relase. oh, and he and david took pictures of racy men's magazines with my digital camera so I'd discover them next time i turned it on. they are sick, sick boys.
fil and jerwemy may or may not have two small polynesean children in their possesion. i met a baby at CAM today named Charlotte and I think she'd be a suitable playmate for such children, if they do exist.
i't s been a long day. shawn moderated a discussion on American Politics, Texas Style at the Baker Institute today. I went to support him, of course, and because I thought it'd be fascinating to hear the opinions of an editor of Texas Monthly. it was kinda long, but really interesting. good job ^___^
Monisa and Stephanie constructed a small igloo tent in the center of our room. although it is amusing, I hope it's taken down soon, before I get used to it. i miss our classy little black ikea coffee table.